In her own flesh (Star)

Star wasn't exactly happy with herself, her fun and games to twist the shovel head to be beneficial to her ritual had backfired and she was exacerbated, and forced to leave the situation.  Part of her just wished she had made the guy masturbate with a knife and be done with it. But the prospects of stripping away the man's self image to revealing the truth underneath, turning his own self hate outward on the Sabbat and then crushing him was too tempting to pass up. Regardless of the hilarity of it all, she was feeling very disappointed in herself.

The experience of being in the ghoul's flesh was definitely something to take into consideration for the future, if there is a future. She thought it was a very useful tool that could have many applications.  Though the experance had left her feeling "strange" but figured if she was going to continue to use it she would need to get used to the feeling of being "alive" and "weak". Though it could be extremely beneficial.

Sadly being among the Sword right now was not really one of them. She didn't have a lot of options and she started to think being here was Insane, Camarilla or not.
".....The sword cannot be trusted , except to follow their own interest. There will be no Alliance and whatever Lord Randolph is thinking he must be misguided... I need to make sure he isn't. For all our sakes... His plan will not work and we are both in real danger."

Star decided to Simply remain still in her box, playing "torpor" and praying nobody bothered her while she contemplated what to do next to get out of this mess.

Star's mind raced as she was grabbed and a hood thrown over her head. Panic starts to set in rather quickly. She didn't know exactly what was going on but she knew it wasn't going to be good. She couldn't let them take her to the Bishop. Matheus had already tired to kill her once, she was sure he would finish the job.  Everyone around her was her enemy. No doubt Randolph was probably dead at this point especially after that idiotic scheme he brought to the Bishop. And if he wasn't he didn't try to prevent what happened. Star felt betrayed.
Her hope of contacting her master had backfired and now she was sure she was going to be destroyed.

Star tried to stay calm as these men came for her, but as soon as they placed their hands on her, she took the opportunity to strike them with her power.
((DTham:lvl3PoP))
"...never touch me shit head...."
She growled in her mind

Once the group reached the fork where they could have headed up, as the group stay leveled heading down the desecrated church again Star invokes the powers of darkness to numb the senses of one of the guys holding her.



The Gargoyle continues to walk very alert as the guy at Rebecca's left stops confused and says up loud
"I'm blind, I can't see..." holding to Star's arm in place.

The situation was getting worse by the minute and it didn't help the fact that she kept failing just about everything she attempted to do this evening. Still she was determined to being annoying little cunt and spread chaos in hopes of giving herself a window to escape.

"I'm blind, I can't see..."

".... serves you right shithead.... maybe if I could whittle these fuckers down so I dont have to fight them all... Maybe I can escaping the chaos."

((DTham PoPlvl3))

Sadly Star realized her folly a tad moment too late as her "would be" command was spoken. Even at her blood's new potency and strength, the gargoyle was still too strong for her. She really despise this creature and wanted nothing more than to probably sink her teeth into it and you suck at Soul dry! Or whatever Soul remained in the creature that was, she wanted it to spend eternity within her belly as she digested its very essence. A true hell she had only wished upon a select few individuals within her existence.

As the stake penetrated her heart barely got out the word "awe Fuck" before paralyzation. She was so steaming with hatred that it gave her whiplash when she found herself tied down to some steal medical table, her arms spread wide locked under welded metal plates.

Still this restraint did not stop her from struggling. She used all of her strength to try to move, even dislocating her arm In a attempt get free. She could heal herself after all.

".....fuck! What is this???!!! .."
Her mind growled.

At seeing the strange squid like a man her eyes went wide
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" .... Jesus Christ it's Cthulhu... A deep one! I'm on hell..
She said in a gasp and started struggling even harder to try to get out of her restraints and break her own limbs to get free using her new found strength And potance.
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" .....
I died and went to hell...nuuuuu no ."
Star said in protest as she broke her own arm against the restraint and strangely found the sensation very plesent giving a lustful moan..
" .....mmmm fuck.. maybe I'm not in hell ....  hell would not  feel this good... But I'm not gona deal with some lovecraftian nightmare!

Star never stopped struggling to get free. She tried and tried and tried, over and over again even as the waves of pain washed into a orgasm of pleasure beyond anything she had ever felt before, she still refused to stop struggling.

As the Fiend worked for what felt like hours on end, Star felt her life start to pass behind her eyes. Everything she was, everyone she had known, and everything she had worked for was gone. She felt she would never see her Father, her Sire or Phillip ever againg. And maybe it was for the best, let them remember her as the person she was, not the disapointment she had turned into. It eas this thought that truly started to break her resolve.

Star knew she was tough enough to survive all types of torture, at least physical. But her heart and spirit was breaking, she didn't know if she could hold on anymore. And now she faced her destruction... Or worse, being turned into living undead a furniture for this fiend's amusement.

As star looked at herself in the mirror's reflection hope of survival started to fade from her mind, only to have it replaced with despair.
Star's mind begged and pleated for help. She called to the stars, she called to her master and to whatever god that would listen to please save her from this nightmare. Star was breaking, this was hell... No this was probably worse then hell. And now she was probably going to face eternity as furniture.

They say pressure makes diamonds, but too much pressure makes dust. And soon that was all she was going to be.

As a last act of defiance, Star mustered all her will she could before she breaks completely and turns her own dark power on to herself.

((DTham PoPlvl3 | Target: herself))

Star attempted to lock herself away in her own mind. She prayed that it would be enough to curse her own senses, so she would be spared witnessing her fate.

Star's spirit was in shambles along with her body, no doubt. Her mind was on the brink of breaking,  she was lost in despair and any hope of escape had long left her last night. Star's fate look like it was sealed.

Oh Childe... what have you become?

The Bishop's voice came as a surprise to her, though she was in hardly any kind of position to react. At first she wasn't even sure what was being said and thought she might just be hallucinating.

Star listened as much as her form allowed, The Bishop was offering her a warrior's death? Or even a chance to escape? Could she be hearing this right?  Indeed Randolph seemed to still be alive, and she was betrayed, caught up in some kind of trap he set for her. Though she didn't fully understand why.

And it seemed all Matheus wants was her cooperation, it Star that was a small price  to get free from this nightmare. She was willing to do anything that was asked of her. Even though she could not speak, and let alone move, there was the look of submission in her eyes as She agreed.

Tell me everything you know about the Gangrel Gate

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" Yes your Excellency, .... The Gate  is considred the greatest success of the Grangrel Clan, its construction was not just to keep the threat of the Sword at bay,  but also werewolves and keep tabs on other threats to the Princedom.

From my understanding the Gate is controlled militantly, with them having access to police, SWAT and even the damn Feds And US military If need be.  The Prince's Sheriff, Theo Bell of clan Brujah works closely with the Gate. But the Gate is mostly under the authority of The Mistress of the Gate, Commander Jezebelle, the Forgotten Hero."
Star goes on to describe Jezebel to the bishop. A very scary woman in Star's eyes, but someone who would be very hard not to be able to pick out in a crowd.

The Gangrel gate is a highly advanced 24h surveillance system that spans all across the entire city ..And then some. They have the use of technology I didn't even know existed. Really futuristic stuff .. Im talkin' satellite imaging, infrared scanners, body heat scanners, use of Street camera surveillance, and any other cameras in the city.  Traffic lights cams' , ATMs, mundane security on building. It's all hooked to the grid. They have  facial recognition, hook to every known database. Passport photos, school IDs , mugshots anyting that identifies you at any point, they have access to. It was how they identified us all that night,   even powers such as Obfuscation doesn't work on their tech. Look like someone else? Try to hide? they know who you are and where you are at. We never had a chance to beat the gate, they were expecting us. "
There was clear pain and regret in her voice for that night.
But Star didn't want to linger on it, she had enough misery in her short life to last centuries. She just wanted to answer the questions to the best of her ability. Star paused trying to think if there was anything else she knew or had come to believe about the topic.

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" .... it is my understanding your Excellency, that the Gate does not reach below to the city, in the sewers and underground subway tunnels... At least not the working ones. From experience in dealing with the horrors that are under the city. The creatures I fought down there should never have been there if the Gate indeed extended below the surface. But that was 5 years ago. things might have changed after the incidents down there."
She added as she recalled the spiders. it was a very uncomfortable memory

Star was far beyond caring about any "loyalty" to the Camarilla at this point. She originally only joined the Cam' to be with Brian. Lord  Randolph had her already believing that her father had left the Camarilla and she had joined him in the "resistance" . She gave freely the information the Bishop request without holding anything back. The only bit that she showed any hesitation with was when she mentioned her father, Sir Hell Song among the Gangrels that were on the Gate's team. And it was easily to see that she cared deeply for him and was scared for his safety. Though due to Randolph's brainwashing she mentioned that he had left the Camarilla to join the "resistance" .
But she questioned at some point that if the Gangrel Gate was such a achievement for the clan and indeed such a integral facet for the city,  why would the Prince want to start a war with them after everything they have done to protect the princedom. Star had no answer for this as her mind was truly conflicted due to Lord Randolph dominate.

Star continued to give freely any and all information she could. Including how she was saved by the primagen Astor, her father's sire. She described their compound and where it was located at the Bronx zoo, but or a time Period she heard it got moved to the chess club after the attack. And that the Nosferatu are said reside there, making use of the many underground tunnels. But the Gangrel still seem to control things top side. So Star didn't seem quite sure. She did mention the last time that she was in the primogen's presence it was at the zoo. So things might have changed during the time she was preoccupied in the tower trying to prove herself to her clan.

Star was grateful to feel a bit more back together then she was previously, though she knew this nightmare was far from over. She did her best to be very polite, and very very cooperative. She knew that there was a very special place in hell for traitors, and she felt she was already been there.

Mathew then asked.
"Tell me everything you know about the Ivory Tower"

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" .. as you wish your Excellency.."

Star started to go into great detail about the Tower and its location. She mentioned how Bright seem to  be on top of everything , at the head of every little detail . She described his office and how it changed, the many doors that lead to different rooms and hallways. She even mentioned the Seneschal's desk size and that he had vanished for 5 years and no one knew where he was. Lord Randolph was thought to be dead along with Lord Hart and Gregory after the Chess Club incident.

Star also mentioned that Bright had connections with something called the "Syndicate" , though she was not a hundred percent sure what it was.

 Star went into great detail about everything she knew about about there security protocols and up dates. Every new feature, every step she took and counted from the elevator to the hallways and all the check points in between. There was one thing about Star that was absolute, she had a great attention for detail when it came to security. The Sword had trained her well for this trait, and it was something that she practiced everyday of her existence.

Star went into detail about  the " mirror of Truth" and Sir Gunn, who is a very strong protective Elder that wore a suit of armor and that was her boyfriend's sire.
She spoke about Philip even though it was very hard for her. The bishop could tell there was a blood Bond there, even at it's weakest level.

Indeed Star seemed to be extremely well connected for her young age within the tower when it came to connections and security. She even went as far as to describe the underground parking garage and living quarters for the kindred. From her time living at the tower, she told him about how many Kindred she saw on a regular basis and nightly habits that could be expected. She made mention of her sire and his various offices, but the bishop could tell she was very hesitant and actually feared deeply for her sires life.
Sadly Star not remember the conversation the Bishop had with her about his brother do to Lord Randolph's meddling. So indeed she was very terrified for David, she didn't want him ending up dead due to this information and she started to sob. She truly loved David and felt that she had betrayed him.  but still she gave Matheus everything he asked and more.

Then he repeated his last commands.
"Tell me everything you know about the Gangrel Gate and the Ivory Tower..."

As Star's original sire, her creator's  command entered her mind, it gripped her so deeply she started to scream. Whatever movement she had she started to thrash, sobbing in complete torment of the realization of her actions.
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" .... he ... hated me since my conception ... He attacked me  and the spirit of pain the black spirals gave me. He spoke to it... Caused me to frenzy in the office of the Prince... Randolph tried to destroy me!!! I hate him! I want him to suffer eternal torment... I tried to eat him .... But I failed...  because I tried to eat him...  He delivered me to hell!  
Star sobbed uncontrollably as everything flashed in front of her eyes.
" ...please dear god... Help me...
Star whimpers as she tries to maintain her resolve so because of all the torture that she had already endured it wavers.

The fate of her father imprisoned  by  the being she now called "her master " tormented her unlike any torture ever could. After All Star had sold her soul in a futile attempt to free her father from his torment, not caring about her own well-being. But at the core of it that was what Star was, a Defender! someone who would throw away their own existence for another, especially someone she loves so dearly as her father.  

Star started to sob through tearless eyes,  until she settled and anger filled that place. Not just a anger, but complete hatred towards Randolph. For in that complete moment the blood-bond that he had put on her was wavering slightly, no doubt she was under his control and she could not keep this up while in his presence. But that did not stop the truth of the matter and the Bishop could clearly see things Randolph had done to her. There was something within his blood binding that was far beyond the first level. A corruption that was invading her soul, yet somehow star still resisted and bucked like a Wild Horse. Maybe it was the fact that she really wasn't human to begin with
or  maybe it was that part of her that was a werewolf, maybe it was that she had a warrior spirit or maybe it was the fact that the bishop had embraced such a strong soul from the start. But whatever the case she was not willing to give up or give in.

Star knew that she had been kidnapped right after she had tried to assassinate the seneschal.
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" .. I tried to kill him after he attacked me.... It was my choice, it was my falling... perhaps I am a traitor, to both The Sword and the Tower ... but regardless..  a deal is a deal. And if nothing else I am as good as my word.. As a Ventrue, I am at least that much honorable... your Excellency. The blood you gave, it shapes me .... even though I am corrupted because of him."
Star said holding contempt for herself, But continuing to give the bishop the requested information he asked for.

"Tell me everything you know about the Gangrel Gate and the Ivory Tower..."

Even though she had been through so much and her soul had been Twisted into such a degree it was almost unrecognizable from where she had started And Her Humanity had been lost along the way. She still held some semblance of Honor.... If nothing else at least to honor her word. For if she gave her word and agreed to something she would wholeheartedly defend it. She remained honorable to her last drop of her core, holding to her word.

She then tells the  Bishop again everything that she can remember or that holds importance about the Camarilla, including all that she knows about Randolph. Though the Bishop could tell that due to the Blood Bond he had allowed, Star would not speak directly  too endanger him. Whatever William had done to her was indeed stronger than any blood Bond ,Matheus had known about. Perhaps this was an indication of Lord Randolph infernalism? For I'm sure the Bishop new of Williams generation, and the fact that he could not bring star out of torpor alone. Indeed William had tried to corrupt Star far beyond any point that was given initially. As though this might just be Camarilla business, it still left a lot to be questioned on William's behalf.

((OOC: Shifting the blame on to Randolph, 'cuz fuck that guy, and I'm sure that the bishop doesn't need too much of an excuse to think/prove that Randolph is a demon worshipper and has used Star  (the Bishop's bastard childr) in his scheme because she tried to eat him... (such as the Sabbat do. ) its a intetesting angle and Food for thought LoL ))

But regardless, Star was still very willing to cooperate. It was cemented in her mind that she had to in order to survive and saved her father And herself.

Star nodded her head understanding that she was going to be destroyed, but at least she but at least she would die A Warrior's death. Maybe the stars in the sky would rember her.

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" .please.. I need a moment to pray......"

Star took a moment to kneel, to pray .. Speaking softly from her soul in the ancient language of Enoch.To beg for the demon's attention who she gave her soul to.
((speaking in Enoch, her voice only a whisper))[color=#00ff99]
" my lord, I have given to you all of myself, I have nothing left. I have swore to be useful and I still am.  My life , my death , and all that is in between  is only by your will .  i have been delivered into the hands of my enemy by a Deceiver who has tried to not only take me from you as his own slave,  but also destroy me .  I cannot continue onward like this.. my death is on the horizon and my destruction inevitable..forgive me.  Perhaps in another life I will not fail. " [/color]
She said, completely broken at this point ,realizing that she never free her father from his torment And she would likely be to join him very soon.

After this prayer she stood up resigning herself to the Fate that befelled her. She was a Warrior. It wasn't just a state of mind,  or something she was taught.. It was something with her soul. And she was determined to take her final steps upon this world as a warrior. She prepared herself for battle.
((Blood buffing Dex, Str and Stam as needed to max before she leaves to confront death))

"A light that burns twice as bright only lasts for half as long."

As Star stepped through the threshold of the doorway to the courtyard, She took in a breath, feeling the night air fill her lungs and exhaled. Star tried to let herself simply feel the last bit of the earthly world fill her sences. This was the end of the road. Though she was not filled with sorrow or dispair. The time for that had passed. She was going to die and had accepted her fate. At least she was granted a warrior death compared to what she was facing.
All she wanted now was to enjoy the last fight of her  existence and she prayed it would not be over too quickly.


Star looked at Fred and smirked.
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" ....yeah.. Today really is a good day to die... Let's do this."
Star said as she gave Fred a nod.
If she was going to hell, she was going to do so with a smile on her face.
She no longer held any fear of her destruction, any thoughts of escaping have long since left her mind. Ske knew this was the end of the line, she wpuld face her death like a proud Ventrue Knight and Warrior. At least she would not be Randolph's play thing.

Star was on the ground before she even knew what hit her, but it didn't matter. She knew there was no surviving, she knew what awaited her after her destruction.  she just wanted to fight and enjoy the battle like a warrior, Being a warrior was in her soul,  hopefully she could die as one.

"Live by the Sword, Die by the Sword" as Little John once said to her. The irony of that statement was not lost on her.  Star only wished her beloved companion was by her side. Where ever L.J. was and who ever finds her beloved blade, she hopes they appreciate it as much as she did. Star could only hope that David could see passed Randolph's deception and know that something had happened to her and he was indeed covering it up. There was a lot of evidence that Randolph didn't know still laying around. Though none of it would change Star's fate. And at this point she didn't care, whatever game Randolph was playing was clearly out of her League. She was dead the moment she turned from The Princess office and gave into her sins. Maybe that's why she was going to hell. She had died the moment she tried to drink his soul, she just didnt realize it yet.

If it wasn't Star's own folly that brought about her end, it was Randolph. If not him then the Black Spirals who where coming for her. If not them and some other unforeseen thing like the events of Central Park or the spiders in the sewer. It seemed that the cards have always been stacked against her no matter how hard she struggled. He life was utter pain and torment.  Her truly only huge regret was not staying next to her father throughout all of this.. HE was the only reason she abandoned the Sword and try to start a new life for herself. A life where she could make her father proud. But even coming to the realization that his soul was being tormented in hell and she could not save him, she realized she was a failure. And this fact alone caused her to lose all hope of survival.

It really didn't matter what happened to her  she was a shadow of her former self. Sacrificing everything she was just for a chance to save her father. At least she is loyal to him, no one can argue that. But loyalty does not equal salvation, and star felt she was doomed to fail from the start. But that did not stop her from trying. She was a Garrison after all. A warrior and known Survivor. If she could go back in time and change anything ... it would not be her embrace, or her leaving Sword to be with her father. I would be her not spending as much time with Brian as she could. Star felt that she had wasted the last five years of her life trying to please her clan when she should have been trying to enjoy the time she had with her father.
She never should have thought she had "forever" and she was very upset at herself for letting the Camarilla make her "soft".

But everything was a mute point now, she would be joining her father in Hell very soon. All she could hope for was this fight to last a little longer then the last one she was in and her to die exceptionally well. Those that knew her would remember her as a Knight of the Blood of Oath, someone who wanted to protect the city. She didn't want anybody to see her as what she truly was. A Judas Iscariot, a traitor, a betrayer and a Sabbat at her core. But even worse than that a  infernalist now. someone who had given up her soul to  try to save her father. Which she could not even manage  to do..... Star felt like a failure. But she only felt like this because of Randolph. If he had not kidnapped her she might have had a chance. But then again that was a mute point now...........

OoC : Cooments +:

Star immediately called upon the dark power in her soul to curse Fred as she laid on the ground right by his feet. She reached out effortlessly to touch him. Casting her dark will upon him to curse his senses. She knew that the fight would be over far too quickly if he used that flamethrower with in his hand. And she could don't allow her death to be so quick. She could not allow her Beast to take control over her and deny her this last right.

Star then moved to use Fred as a human shield, knowing that he would probably be deaf dumb and blind do to her power. She grappled his arm in an attempt to use his flamethrower as a weapon if need be. She was determined to hit them with everything that they had intended to throw at her. Mind you she was not doing this for her survival, Just to prolong the fight because she knew that her death would be eminent and she wanted to die as a warrior.

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